Flashback#1

"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I cant do this anymore !" Nicki sobbed and stared down so as not to look anyone in the eyes. SB and her mother stared helplessly. Mama Carol stood at the end of the bed but slightly to the right so as not to get in the midwifes way. SB held back Nicki's right leg.


"Look, you may have to have a section as we aren't going anywhere with this pushing. Okay I'm going to get a doctor and speak about your options." The midwife looked sympathetically at the 2 young 16 year old. She had delivered a few baby's with teenage parents and they always found it harder. She left the room to find a doctor, praying that Nicki got her act together by the time she got back so she didn't have to have a section. After all it was serious surgery and took days to recover, she hadn't really spoke much to the teenagers so didn't know what they were planning to do with the baby but she got a feeling they were not going to keep it.


(Back in the room)
"Onika you really have to put in more effort. We all warned you it was going to be hard !" Mama Carol was still angry that her daughter and practically son was in this position. She had snapped because she felt her daughters pain and knew to well how much it hurt. "Look I'm going to get some coffee and calm down.


After hearing the harsh words from her mother Nicki had completely broken down. She was emotionally and physically exhausted. Her labour had started 45 hours ago and she hadn't had any sleep yet. Her mother was so annoyed she was pregnant in the first place that she had no sympathy for her. SB was still in shock he was giving his baby away. They had decided this a couple of months back it was the best thing to do but it seemed so awful to him he didn't want to think about it to much. He knew he sould be paying all attention to Nicki right now.


"Baby, listen. I know this is hard and i know your tired but we both want to get this baby out and move on. I know we wont be parents to this baby so lets make it proud of us. When the midwife comes back i want you to push so hard. Think of all the bad things that has happened to you.2 He gulped he didn't know if this was going to help her or make it worse but he thought it was worth a try. " Think about how pissed you are that your Grandmother died. Think about when Jelani accidentaly burnt your favourite top when ironing. Think about what your dad's done . Put all your anger into this Nicki. Do it for the baby". He nuzzled his face into her neck breathing heavily. "Please"

The midwife walked in. Before she said anything Nicki blurted out " i wanna push". The midwife was slightly taken aback. "Would you like to wait for your mother?". Nicki looked at SB and knew he was all she needed. "NO". Suddenly another contraction came.
Nicki strained silently knowing if she wasted any more energy in screaming she wouldn't be able to do it. "Well done Onika i can see the head,   that's it ! Oh well done! One last push Nicki and it will be done. "Nicki screwed up her face and gave it everything she had.

When she opened her eyes the midwife was thrusting the baby in her face. She didn't want to take it, or even look at it in fact. She knew as soon as she did she would connect and love it and not want to let it out of her sight. She looked away but SB stared at her and then the baby.
"Nicki take it. You will only regret it for the rest of your life if you don't.  She took the now wrapped up bundle and held it close against. She peeked down and as tears ran down her face she said "its not an it . Its a boy. Our boy".

SB was scared when he was handed his son. He knew he would never want to let go as he looked into the same eyes as he looked into every day. The love of his life and the mother of his child. But as Mama Carol walked in Nicki and Safaree's dream was burst. It broke them into reality , this wasn't there baby and more. Nicki tilted her head and back and clutched Safaree's hand. "Dear Lord, may you bless our child and let him have the best life he can. Make the decision we made the best one ".



I know its super short but i have a lot on my plate right now ! you guys dont have GSCE'S in America but basically i have to pick what i want to study for the next 4 years and what qualifications i want when im older and need a job soooo -_-. Anyways you know the deal 10 comments and i will start writing. Don;t much about birth stuff either even tho my mums a midwife so soz about that. And hey if u have any question feel free 2 ask !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Muah *Its barbie bitch"